you are the light of my lifee....


when vanity strikes.. haha XD


hmm ive survived da 1st month of college... so far so good.. i noe dat i cud never hav done it without Jesus.. He was da one giving me da strength and da courage to go thru dis transition of lifee.. its seriously a very very big different from high scool lifee.. cuz in high scool almost everything is being done for u.. but in college, everything u hav to do it urself...

its like a whole new environment.. theres all kind of ppl there.. ppl u never knew... all from diff backgrounds and lifestyles... so starting college is like starting kindergarten.. where ur like an alien who dunno a single person there... in kindergarten, u will end up playing wif da girl/boy next to u like bestfrens in juz less than 10 minutes.. BUT.. in college its so NOT like dat...its really hard to find someone who clicks wif u and talk like u guys are bestfrens... well even if u do, it might not last long.. unless ur lucky to find someone genuine..

cuz unfortunately.. its very sad to say dat ppl in college, they are not dat simple.. they might look all innocent and nicee but u wudnt noe wat are they like.. they might be da ones bitting ur neck in da futuree.. cuz to be honest, i realised dat its all about how u carry urself and how u look on da outside dat matters to them.. one word to fully describe dat is : Judgemental... unless and until ur like them, they'll oni come and mix wif u...

well, not 100% of college kids are like dat.. i mean there are really nice and awesome ppl u can make frens wif too.. ppl dat accept u for who u aree.. and talk to u no matter how u look.. and share their jokes wif u... so, if ur lucky ull get these genuine souls as ur frens.. well and i consider myself lucky !! i seriously thank God dat he blessed me wif awesome and nice frens who do not simply judge me.. instead accept me for who i am and taking da initiative to noe me betta..

oh and dats not da oni thing i wanna thank God for.. i seriously wanna thank God for placing my fren wif me in da SAME college... SAME course.. and SAME class !!! for sending someone i already knew for 2 years to go thru this transition wif me :) i seriously cannot be more grateful than dis.. im seriously amazed dat God noes wat i actually need.. and he gives it more than i expected !! i really wanna praise da Lord wif all my heart for being ever so faithful and sweet to me althou i dont deserve it.. Jesus is seriously very amazing !! :) he works in ways none of us can ever imaginee.. and he works in ways dat touched our hearts and open up our eyes :)

thanks JESS for being here for me.. for going thru dis wif me.. i believe dat God places both of us togetha in da same place for 10 months is for a reason.. a purpose dat He had planned for us :) so no matter wat, we'll go thru dis togetha.. so conclusion, im glad to say dat jess, u hav to bear wif all my craziness and cassandra-ness !! :P u hav NO CHOICE !! hahah..




before i end .. had PHYSICS EXAM todayyyy !! since last december !! da oni diff is dat dis exam is way way way TOUGHER !! :S haha..


okiee toodlesss...

i surrender all of my life to u...

come and take me...

use me however u choose...

all i am is Yours...

SBU's SENIOR PROM NITEEE :)

**18th of December 2009**

i'll juz let da pics do da talking.. im very lazy to do story telling.. haha.. xD

Daniel...

Xin Yi..

Michelle..

Afzyyyyyy :)

Ivyyyyyyy :)

Nicoleee....

Tashaaa :)

Haseef...

table-mates.. haha tasha, me, alya and haseef...

PROM KING AND QUEEN !! :) Kim Hong was our prom queen :)


Nikko hotel's ladies'... haha nice ritee.. its actually a room wif a big mirror where girls touch up their make up or wat not.. haha..


Bryant...

Trixieeeee :)

Zaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn !! :) my "lala" buddy !! :P hahaha..


my loveeee !! :) <3

alyaaaaaaa !! :)

xoxo...


and finally, urs truly :)

oh and i was awarded da "MOST ELIGIBLE BACHELORETTE" tittle !! XD hahaha...

hehe.. :)

my hairstyle for dat niteee...

ohh and my sis.. she was actually sleeping adyy.. but when she heard me opened da door at bout 1am.. she suddenly woke up and said wanna take pics wif me ... LOL... and dis is da pic which is not obvious dat she hav da sleepy look on her facee..


hahaha.. dat nite was one word... AWESOME !! :) had lots fun wif frens...

- ateeee...

- talked...

-crapped...

-laughed like crazyyy...

-oh and DANCED !! XD haha..

- CAMWHORED !! :P

hahaha it was seriously a nite to remember lahh... glad dat my senior prom rocked !! :) haha..

im starting to miss high scool now...

Girls juz wanna hav fun :)

**9th December 2009**

i noe its been a month.. but i juz feel like talking about dis.. went out wif ALYA a day afta spm was over !! :) we went and lepak-ed at PAVILION !! from 10 to 5...

i went to coffee bean somewhere opposite pavilion building as early as 8.30am... cuz parents had something to do near there and they had to be there by 9am.. so they dropped me off at coffee bean and got me my mocha frap before they left... so i sat there and waited for alya to come... watched ppl going in and out from coffee bean was a great way to kill timee.. seriously !! haha cuz coffee bean was like an orang tengah where ppl used it to go over to da other sidee.. so i see loadz of office ppl walking back and forth thru coffee bean.. some even stopped for a coffee.. haha.. so i checked ppl out till abt 9.30..cuz dats when alya came.. so we sat at coffee bean for a while and talked and crapped and of course camwhored !! haha till 10am then we walked across to Pavilion via da technologized overhead bridge... haha..

then we went to da cinema to book a movie.. we watched a christmas carol :) movie was about 12 plus.. da movie was okayh lahh.. juz theres some scaryy parts which i'd never expect from a christmas moviee.. and i gotta say dis...

**alyaaa was scared !!** :P hahah..

everytime when theres sudden movements or da eerie sound, alya wud movie closer to me...and she'd jerk a lil too.. was so funny lahh when i told her about it afta da moviee.. haha so afta movie we went for lunch at da food court.. then afta dat was historyyyy !! we walked and walked.. shopped and shopped... talked and talked... crapped and crapped... laughed and laughed... we oni managed to buy some clothes from cotton on... were actually hunting for prom shoes but all were too expensive and da heels were like killer so was not suitable for us...so didnt managed to buy prom shoes dat day but we definitely had LOADZ OF FUN togetha !!

alya had to go at 5 plus.. so i sent her til da bridge and saw her off till she entered da car ... and i went back inside pavilion cuz i had to wait for parents til 6pm.. so while waiting, i shopped for my fren's bday gift.. by da time i finished, parents picked me and we went home.. was super super super tired.. my feet were all sored.. but all was worth it .. i'd never exchange dat day wif anything elsee :) ...

*pics credits to alyaaa...*

at coffee bean...

1st attempt... niceeee....

2nd attempt.. niceeeerrrr :)

on our way to pavilion... pavilion's bridge...

christmas decos... i looked so tinyyy.. haha..

white reindeer :)

santa's sleigh... haha..

reindeer ...

christmas trees outside pavilion...

alyaaaa :)

da overall view of da decos from da top of da stairs...

yahh its a must for a pic in pavilion's toilet... hahaha..

on da way to da moviee...

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it was definitely a day i'll never forget :)

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THE END !! :) haha..

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love u lots alyaaaa :)

cause it's something about the way u know me...





heyyyy IM BACK !! :D

gosh its been like days and months since ive updated !! oh no, da last time i updated was last year !! imagine dat.. its already 2010 and i hav not say anything here... hahah..

havent blogged about :
- life afta spm..
- prom nitee...
- CHRISTMAS..
- CG camp..
- New Year..

gosh dats a lot :S haha and soon its gonna be about college life !! hahah.. oh and not forgetting my driving stuff.. haha gonna take my undang exam dis saturdayyy...

anywayss.. im gonna blog about dat long list some otha time.. not gonna do it now cuz kinda watching a moviee.. haha.. hopefully i'll get to start blogging more often again.. well, as u can see im kinda lazy and not sumone u wud wanna call a "rajin blogger" ... haha..

so.. i'll be back.. STAY TUNE... haha..

lovesss.. :)

and it's juz something bout the way u love me...

Begin Again...
colbie caillat


I can't get you out of the sunlight
I can't get you out of the rain
I can't get you back to that one time
Cause you and me are still recovering

So let's just, try to cool it down
The fighting, this feeling of flames
So let's try to slow it down
We crash when we race

[chorus:]
Oh this is not the way that it should end
It's the way it should begin
It's the way it should begin, again
No, I never wanna fall apart,
Never wanna break your heart
Never wanna let you break my own
Yes, I know we've said a lot of things
That we probably didn't mean
But it's not too late to take them back
So, before you say you're gonna go...
I should probably let you know
That I never knew what I had...
I never knew what I had...

See I look for you in the morning
Cause that's what my mind always calls
And I can't wait to get to the evening
Cause that's when I want you the most

So let's try to cool it down
The fighting, this feeling of flames
So let's try to slow it down
We crash when we race

[chorus:]

But I know it now...
I wish I would've known before
How good we were...
Or is it too late to come back
Or is it's really over,
If it's really over...

But this is not the way that it should end
It's the way it should begin
It's the way it should begin, again
No, I never wanna fall apart,
Never wanna break your heart
Never wanna let you break my own
Yes, I know we've said a lot of things
That we probably didn't mean
But it's not too late to take them back
So, before you say you're gonna go...
I should probably let you know
That I never knew what I had...
I never knew what I had...

I never knew what I had...
I never knew what I had...
I never knew what I had...


**aweeesooomeeee song !!! =D**

its alright, its okayhh ..

dis post is highly requested by my faithful fans !! xD

soooo ..

HEYYYYYYY !!!

im back noww !!

and im GONEE !! =p

gonna be M.I.A for quite sometime till i dunno when ...

so MISS ME KAYHHH !! :D haha..

till thenn ..

lovesss :)

Love is like a war, it always finds it's way thru...

- Looking back, I have this to regret, that too often when I loved, I did not say so.

(David Grayson)

- If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them, I'd be at the bottom to catch them.

(Source Unknown)

- The way to find out if you love someone or not, is by talking to them. The more you talk to them the more you either hate them or love them.
(Brad Breitenstein)

- Live through feeling and you will live through love. For feeling is the language of the soul, and feeling is truth.

(Matt Zotti)

-Of all forms of caution, caution in love is perhaps the most fatal to true happiness. (Bertrand Russell)

haha...

dunno wat to update these days..

so juz tot of creating dis lovey dovey post..

:)

do not play wif my feelings...

cuz its not at all funny...

sometimes i wonder...

if im ever worth it..

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my bestfriend is seventeen !!
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on da 16/09/09
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HAPPIE 17th BIRTHDAY ALYAAAAAA !!!! :)
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firstly let us go back in time and reflect on all those memories we hav shared.. :) thru da pics we've captured... these are all da pics i hav of u... actually there are more but its too many to post it all up ... sooooo....
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introducing ALIA ZURINA !!
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***drum rolls***

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this is our first picture togetha... awhhh :) hahah..



and this is our latest picture togetha.. and i loveee this da most !!

alya in 1950's...

alya and zan...

during IU DAY....

alya in Hawaii's toilet?? hahaha...

yeapp we were hoola hoola-ing in da toilet dressed up in hawaiian clothes...

and it looks like we're enjoying it and having fun !! haha...

shweeeet :)

haha nahhh!! da truth was we were at our friend's party la... and her theme was hawaii !!


alya and zan...


i was tryin to cheer her up...


was still trying really hard.....


and SUCCEEDED !!! ~alya smiled~alya smiled~alya smiled~ hahaha!!


i was checkin her out.. but kena palau-ed...


hahaha i dunno wat happened.... cuz afta dat...

she was checkin me out !!! hahahahah !!

okayhh people so now u've seen how alya eats... so watch out!! cuz she aint dat gentle all da time!! hahahah.. =p

but she is still as sweeeeet all of da time !!!


at a choral speaking competition...

eventhou i looked so so so stupid here, i still post dis up... because.... u looked STUPID too !!! hahaha!! =p

yeapp we were advertising milo drinks !! haha...

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so there u hav it... a part of alya's life wif cass made by cass !! hahaha !!

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anywaysss...that was juz da appetizer... now for da main course... okayhh get ready cuz im gonna start talking...ermm typing i mean.. and i dunno when im gonna stop...hahaha...

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firstly..noh ive done firstly... so secondly...alya, i wanna let u noe dat uve been an awesome fren to me all these while... im very very grateful dat ive been given da opportunity to be called a fren of urs... u dunno how much u hav shined in my life... ur someone who is very nice to be around... i noe dat i can always count on u if i needed to talk, cry or even laugh... ur always there when i call... uve never said no to anything ive asked of u... u willingly helped me thru my troubles and needs without asking why do u need to...

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thou ive oni met u last year and da time we've known each other was oni a year plus... but it is proven that theres a strong bond between us cuz we've clicked really fast and brought dis priceless friendship this far... we've so much in common and plenty to talk about.. we can juz sit and start talking like theres no limit.. and we can juz call each other up and talk for hours.... oh and we can practically laugh at almost everything...

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but when i first knew u, u were actually da reason we laugh!! =p hahah.. juz by looking at u or da things u do, i tell u it really amused me... u do da silliest things alive... and well anything is worth it if its for a good laugh, rite ?? =p but now u rarely fall for our pranks anymoree... so all our attempts to prank u dah tak jadi anymore... seems like ur immune to it ady... anyways u are still u and u still make me laugh when u do one of ur silly and clumsy stunts !! =p hahaha..

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alya, i wanna express my sincere apologies to u if ive ever hurt u in any ways... if ive said something dat might hav offended u.. or did something dat might hav caused u troubles... or if ur upset wif me for watever i did...im really sorrie... i might not hav realised or noticed it, but i juz wanna say dat im truly sorrie for da things dat ive done anything to hurt... im sorrie kayhh .. :)

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i oso wanna thank u for everything dat uve done for me... for things uve helped me with.. for helpin me thru my studies... for telling me when im wrong... for correcting my mistakes... for listening to my troubles... for lending me a shoulder to cry on... for comforting me when im sad... for trying very hard to cheer me up when im not in da mood... for defending me when u noe im right... for sharing my happiness togetha... for laughing at my stupid jokes... for accepting me for who i am... for making me feel appreciated... for standing by my side and juz being there for me.. for goin thru da hard times togetha when stuff happens... and most importantly, for being my bestfriend.... :)

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alya u are truly a blessing to everyone who knows u... cuz u are friendly and kind... warm and nice... honest and not jugdemental... juz being who u are inside... u are really a friend dat no one wanna lose... well, it is their lost, not urs !! :) i really admire how u carry urself and da things dat u hold on tightly to... u dun believe in taking da easy way out... u oni believe in working very hard to earn da things u want... and i will always support u in everything u do...

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and now for da dessert... i hope dat watever dat we share here will be continue in da future.. da friendship dat we hav will be as long as it can last...dat we will still be da best of friends when we go our separate ways... i really appreciate everything dat uve done for me... and for not letting me down in anyways... ull always be my friend and bestfriend!! oh and i wanna thank u too for comming to scool always when i asked u to.. cuz well, i guess we are da oni 2 ppl dat are not able to skip scool sesuka hati !!! ahahha...

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so for da last last time of this year ... i juz wanna shout dis out loud... so loud dat da whole world can hear !!!

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HAPPIE BIRTHDAY ALYAAAA !!! :D

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take care and have fun ...

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and

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I LOVE U !!

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~cass~ :)

MUMMY ...

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HAPPIE BIRTHDAY MUMMY !! :)

a special mummy born on a special day...

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mummy.. thank u for all dat uve done for me... for all da countless advice and scolding... for da wonderful years spent wif u and for more and more and more wonderful years to come... for ur sacrifices and care for us... for not giving up on us when we've failed u many times... for da many surprises dat uve surprised us wif... and most of all for da unconditional love dat uve poured upon us... i pray dat ull always be a blessing to this family and to us... i pray dat ull succeed in all u do... and may da presence of da Lord always be wif u now and forever... u are da best, mummy...

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I LOVE U ....

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:)
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ABIGAIL ....

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a special girl born on a special day...

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY ABIGAIL :)

- hope dat u had a great birthday...
- all da best in everything u do...
- thanks for being a great leader and friend...
- may God bless u and ur family always...
- take care and have fun...

loves :)