Begin Again...
colbie caillat


I can't get you out of the sunlight
I can't get you out of the rain
I can't get you back to that one time
Cause you and me are still recovering

So let's just, try to cool it down
The fighting, this feeling of flames
So let's try to slow it down
We crash when we race

[chorus:]
Oh this is not the way that it should end
It's the way it should begin
It's the way it should begin, again
No, I never wanna fall apart,
Never wanna break your heart
Never wanna let you break my own
Yes, I know we've said a lot of things
That we probably didn't mean
But it's not too late to take them back
So, before you say you're gonna go...
I should probably let you know
That I never knew what I had...
I never knew what I had...

See I look for you in the morning
Cause that's what my mind always calls
And I can't wait to get to the evening
Cause that's when I want you the most

So let's try to cool it down
The fighting, this feeling of flames
So let's try to slow it down
We crash when we race

[chorus:]

But I know it now...
I wish I would've known before
How good we were...
Or is it too late to come back
Or is it's really over,
If it's really over...

But this is not the way that it should end
It's the way it should begin
It's the way it should begin, again
No, I never wanna fall apart,
Never wanna break your heart
Never wanna let you break my own
Yes, I know we've said a lot of things
That we probably didn't mean
But it's not too late to take them back
So, before you say you're gonna go...
I should probably let you know
That I never knew what I had...
I never knew what I had...

I never knew what I had...
I never knew what I had...
I never knew what I had...


**aweeesooomeeee song !!! =D**

its alright, its okayhh ..

dis post is highly requested by my faithful fans !! xD

soooo ..

HEYYYYYYY !!!

im back noww !!

and im GONEE !! =p

gonna be M.I.A for quite sometime till i dunno when ...

so MISS ME KAYHHH !! :D haha..

till thenn ..

lovesss :)

Love is like a war, it always finds it's way thru...

- Looking back, I have this to regret, that too often when I loved, I did not say so.

(David Grayson)

- If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them, I'd be at the bottom to catch them.

(Source Unknown)

- The way to find out if you love someone or not, is by talking to them. The more you talk to them the more you either hate them or love them.
(Brad Breitenstein)

- Live through feeling and you will live through love. For feeling is the language of the soul, and feeling is truth.

(Matt Zotti)

-Of all forms of caution, caution in love is perhaps the most fatal to true happiness. (Bertrand Russell)

haha...

dunno wat to update these days..

so juz tot of creating dis lovey dovey post..

:)

do not play wif my feelings...

cuz its not at all funny...

sometimes i wonder...

if im ever worth it..

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my bestfriend is seventeen !!
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on da 16/09/09
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HAPPIE 17th BIRTHDAY ALYAAAAAA !!!! :)
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firstly let us go back in time and reflect on all those memories we hav shared.. :) thru da pics we've captured... these are all da pics i hav of u... actually there are more but its too many to post it all up ... sooooo....
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introducing ALIA ZURINA !!
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this is our first picture togetha... awhhh :) hahah..



and this is our latest picture togetha.. and i loveee this da most !!

alya in 1950's...

alya and zan...

during IU DAY....

alya in Hawaii's toilet?? hahaha...

yeapp we were hoola hoola-ing in da toilet dressed up in hawaiian clothes...

and it looks like we're enjoying it and having fun !! haha...

shweeeet :)

haha nahhh!! da truth was we were at our friend's party la... and her theme was hawaii !!


alya and zan...


i was tryin to cheer her up...


was still trying really hard.....


and SUCCEEDED !!! ~alya smiled~alya smiled~alya smiled~ hahaha!!


i was checkin her out.. but kena palau-ed...


hahaha i dunno wat happened.... cuz afta dat...

she was checkin me out !!! hahahahah !!

okayhh people so now u've seen how alya eats... so watch out!! cuz she aint dat gentle all da time!! hahahah.. =p

but she is still as sweeeeet all of da time !!!


at a choral speaking competition...

eventhou i looked so so so stupid here, i still post dis up... because.... u looked STUPID too !!! hahaha!! =p

yeapp we were advertising milo drinks !! haha...

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so there u hav it... a part of alya's life wif cass made by cass !! hahaha !!

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anywaysss...that was juz da appetizer... now for da main course... okayhh get ready cuz im gonna start talking...ermm typing i mean.. and i dunno when im gonna stop...hahaha...

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firstly..noh ive done firstly... so secondly...alya, i wanna let u noe dat uve been an awesome fren to me all these while... im very very grateful dat ive been given da opportunity to be called a fren of urs... u dunno how much u hav shined in my life... ur someone who is very nice to be around... i noe dat i can always count on u if i needed to talk, cry or even laugh... ur always there when i call... uve never said no to anything ive asked of u... u willingly helped me thru my troubles and needs without asking why do u need to...

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thou ive oni met u last year and da time we've known each other was oni a year plus... but it is proven that theres a strong bond between us cuz we've clicked really fast and brought dis priceless friendship this far... we've so much in common and plenty to talk about.. we can juz sit and start talking like theres no limit.. and we can juz call each other up and talk for hours.... oh and we can practically laugh at almost everything...

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but when i first knew u, u were actually da reason we laugh!! =p hahah.. juz by looking at u or da things u do, i tell u it really amused me... u do da silliest things alive... and well anything is worth it if its for a good laugh, rite ?? =p but now u rarely fall for our pranks anymoree... so all our attempts to prank u dah tak jadi anymore... seems like ur immune to it ady... anyways u are still u and u still make me laugh when u do one of ur silly and clumsy stunts !! =p hahaha..

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alya, i wanna express my sincere apologies to u if ive ever hurt u in any ways... if ive said something dat might hav offended u.. or did something dat might hav caused u troubles... or if ur upset wif me for watever i did...im really sorrie... i might not hav realised or noticed it, but i juz wanna say dat im truly sorrie for da things dat ive done anything to hurt... im sorrie kayhh .. :)

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i oso wanna thank u for everything dat uve done for me... for things uve helped me with.. for helpin me thru my studies... for telling me when im wrong... for correcting my mistakes... for listening to my troubles... for lending me a shoulder to cry on... for comforting me when im sad... for trying very hard to cheer me up when im not in da mood... for defending me when u noe im right... for sharing my happiness togetha... for laughing at my stupid jokes... for accepting me for who i am... for making me feel appreciated... for standing by my side and juz being there for me.. for goin thru da hard times togetha when stuff happens... and most importantly, for being my bestfriend.... :)

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alya u are truly a blessing to everyone who knows u... cuz u are friendly and kind... warm and nice... honest and not jugdemental... juz being who u are inside... u are really a friend dat no one wanna lose... well, it is their lost, not urs !! :) i really admire how u carry urself and da things dat u hold on tightly to... u dun believe in taking da easy way out... u oni believe in working very hard to earn da things u want... and i will always support u in everything u do...

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and now for da dessert... i hope dat watever dat we share here will be continue in da future.. da friendship dat we hav will be as long as it can last...dat we will still be da best of friends when we go our separate ways... i really appreciate everything dat uve done for me... and for not letting me down in anyways... ull always be my friend and bestfriend!! oh and i wanna thank u too for comming to scool always when i asked u to.. cuz well, i guess we are da oni 2 ppl dat are not able to skip scool sesuka hati !!! ahahha...

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so for da last last time of this year ... i juz wanna shout dis out loud... so loud dat da whole world can hear !!!

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HAPPIE BIRTHDAY ALYAAAA !!! :D

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take care and have fun ...

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and

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I LOVE U !!

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~cass~ :)

MUMMY ...

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HAPPIE BIRTHDAY MUMMY !! :)

a special mummy born on a special day...

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mummy.. thank u for all dat uve done for me... for all da countless advice and scolding... for da wonderful years spent wif u and for more and more and more wonderful years to come... for ur sacrifices and care for us... for not giving up on us when we've failed u many times... for da many surprises dat uve surprised us wif... and most of all for da unconditional love dat uve poured upon us... i pray dat ull always be a blessing to this family and to us... i pray dat ull succeed in all u do... and may da presence of da Lord always be wif u now and forever... u are da best, mummy...

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I LOVE U ....

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ABIGAIL ....

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a special girl born on a special day...

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY ABIGAIL :)

- hope dat u had a great birthday...
- all da best in everything u do...
- thanks for being a great leader and friend...
- may God bless u and ur family always...
- take care and have fun...

loves :)

Math paper 2


was SUCKY !!!


cant believe i even screwed up da simplest question...

IDHZAN CHIN....


HAPPIE BUFF 17TH BIRTHDAY DUDE !! :)

firstly, i'll let all ur pics do da talking first... btw these are da oni pics i hav of u... very little oni =(

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anyways...

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***drum rolls***

idhzan.. haha curi-ed dis from ur FB ... cuz i dun hav a solo pic of u.. hahah.. (eh and dats da shirt i gave u last yr ritee? ) :) haha..

we went 50 yrs back in time...

da one and oni pic i hav wif u... yeahh okay okayy i'll admit it since its ur bday, yesh zan ur a lil TALLER than me.. happie ?? hahah..

hmm yeahh about dis... its da gays in da making... hahaha...

at my sweet 16th last yr...

during our last interact photo session...

haha da best pic of all pics.. now da whole world get to see how u look when ur tryin to eat and laugh or eat and smile at da same timee... hahaha.. wat were u tryin to do actually ??

ppl.. dun play play!! zan is really good at dis... im not kidding!! zan can hoola hoolaaaa !! =p hahah..

for da FINALE...

its zan and alyaaa... my two bestfriends in da world... :)

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zan.. all da best in everything u do... thanks for everything dat uve done for me.. for helpin me thru my studies... for spending time telling me all ur grand-idhzan storries... for cheering me up when i was not in da mood.. for tryin to make me laugh when im sad... for comforting me when somethings happened... and most of all for being my friend... ive never thought in a million years dat ur now one of my bestfriends... well u noe how u were when u were in ur primary and lower secondary scool days... very naughty and rebellious.. hahah.. honestly before i knew u, i thought u were those typical kinda teenage boys who were naughty and love causing troubles... but well, i guess now uve grown out of it and began to love BOOKS more... hahah..

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when i first got to noe u early of last year, i never thought dat u will become my buddy now.. u appear to me as a very quiet and shy kinda guy... so different than how i used to hear or at least seen about u... but as time goes by, as i got to noe u closer, u were very nice and friendly and SMART !! haahha.. i can still remember those times when we create havoc in class.. everytime when theres no teacher in class, u and derek will come to our places at da back of da class and do stupid stuff dat will make us laugh our heads off.. i guess dat was da oni time when we were really noisy and get shoosh-ed at most of da time by prefects.. haha..

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da one thing dat i admire about u is dat ur very friendly to everyone.. ur not jugdemental at all... u accept a person for who they are and dats a very rare quality u can find in human these days.. i also admire ur principles in life... u believe in working hard to get wat u want and not taking da easy way out... ur always very generous and think of people more than urself.. u care about ur friends feelings and u always seemed to noe when we're not feeling ok... and ur always on da mission to make ppl laugh... ull always tell us watever dat u think is funny dat is going on in ur life... and yeahh most of it are funny... but i hav to admit dat some of it are lame... and i guess u knew it by looking at our "huh" or "buat bodoh" kinda faces.. but no matter how lame it is.. its still urs and its still original by zan.. so u still deserve a good job for trying... :) hahah..

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zan.. im really sorrie if ive ever done anything wrong dat might hav hurt u... i might not hav noticed it, but i juz want u to noe dat im sorrie and dat ull accept my sincere apologies... but i juz want u to noe dat uve been a great friend and been there for me all these while... honestly speaking zan... to hav u as a friend is one's pride... ur really humble and never boast about urself before... eventhough everyone noes dat ur very SMART !! but u juz dun wanna accept it.. haha..

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lastly... i really apperciate everything dat uve done for me... for da great memories dat uve left in me.. for all da laughters dat uve brought me... and for da life lessons dat ive learnt from u... i juz wanna wish u luck in everything u do... i wish u all da best in ur relationship wif trish... and i'll always uphold u in my prayer for watever u do.. i hope dat our friendship will last for a long time even afta leavin our high scool years... and ull always be my....

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zan = rempit + lala + NERDO + SMARTASS + gay + AWESOME BUDDY !!! =D

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*phewww*

*panting for air*

*take deep breath*

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and for da last time of da year...

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HAPPIE 17th BIRTHDAY ZAN !!!! :)

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hahaha can publish a novel ady... hahaha... i noe la i very ze long winded wan la.. but well i love to talk so u cant blame me for talking but in a typing way... hahhaha... anywaysss.. hope dat ull hav a great 17th... wish u all da best for spm.. but for now trials first.. hav fun and enjoyyyy.. take caree and i'll cyahhh in two days time when da war begins.. hahaha...

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yours truly,

CASSIE =)

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toodlessss...

im not a mind reader, but im reading da signs...


woah my last update was like 2 weeks ago.. i cant find da time cuz trials is 2 days from now..

anyways...

i cut my hair.. my fringe actually... i didnt want it so short actually, but da hairdresser cut it a lil too short.. so it was like not long not short.. like tergantung.. so i cut it a lil more shorter myself and tadahh... i hav a real fringe now... i love it like dat thou.. i dun really fancy fringes but i think dis one looks nice :) haha..


gonna post anotha post afta dis...

someone who will never let u down..


HAPPIE SEXAYY 17Th BIRTHDAY ZANNE !!


durin iu day...

zanne :)

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haha.. i noe da pics look familiar!!! cuz actually ritee... ermm... ermmm... i curi-ed from ur bloggie..hahah.. its da same pics u posted for my bday!! hahaha.. i have ur pics.. but its like wif otha ppl.. so wat does dis tell us?? it tells us dat : WE SHALL TAKE MORE PICS TOGETHA IN DA FUTURE !!! ahahah..

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anywayss... zanne ur finally 17!! welcome to da club of being still young...haha... i wish u all da best in everything u doo.. never give and hav confidence in urself.. and most importantly hav faith and trust in da Lord always.. im really glad to be given an opportunity to be known as a friend of urs.. uve been a great friend so far throughout da one year plus ive known u.. ur always there and never let me down when i needed u... thanks for everything.. juz ur friendlyness and joyful personality hav always made our days great..ur a talented writer... u can write great stories.. i noe dat cuz ive read a few of ur "karya" !! hahaha.. keep up wif dat.. we will all support u in watever u do... take care n hav fun..

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before i end dis.. i juz gotta say dis agian...

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HAPPIE 17th BIRTHDAY !!! :D

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love ya my director :) haha..

say i love u...



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appreciate the people around u...

tell them u LOVE them...

so, why wait? Do it now...

rather than when its too late...

never take them for granted...

never assume dat they noe u love them...

assure them by tellin it to them...

we may neva noe wat is gonna happen tmr...

so if u still hav everyday...

make dat everyday count...

do wat u want and need to do...

do not tell urself dat u can always do it anotha time...

cuz u might never noe when ur given da next chance...

it may be today, tmr or maybe never...

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u will never noe when they're gonna leave u...

cuz these things happen beyond ur control...

it oni happens according to God's will...

oni God noes wat is best for us...

so do not hurt them...

appreciate, thank and love them...

for all they hav done for u...

despite how big or how small da favour was...

show them dat u really care...

let them see and feel ur love for them...

cuz when something really happens

when they are gonna leave u forever...

all of u will hav no regrets...

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so...i wanna say dis sincerely from da bottom of my heart...

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I LOVE U !! :)

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people are very precious...

especially da ones dat u love...

i juz want ya to noe..


currently im watching CSI... watched 4 back-to-back episodes already... havent watched so many at one go thou.. so cool.. haha..

till then.. byeee.. nitezz..

one minute is love and suddenly is like a battlefield...



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one week of H1N1 hols has finally came to an end... tmr scool reopens.. it felt like juz yesterday when da whole world kept sending texts saying dat scool is quarantined for H1N1... and now da quarantine period is over...

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1 week...

7 days...

168 hours...

10080 minutes...

604800 seconds...

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has past... (dun worry im not a maths genius freak... i had my calculator wif me...)

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time flies.. and i dare not count how much time i hav till trials... juz thinking dat its less than a month is starting to freak me out... okieeee... fineee.. i'll go to something more productive now...

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till then.. lovesss..

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i want my starbucks mocha frap pronto...

Fallin For You...

by Colbie Caillat

I don’t know but

I think I maybe

Fallin’ for you

Dropping so quickly

Maybe I should

Keep this to myself

Waiting ’til I

Know you better

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**I am trying

Not to tell you

But I want to

I’m scared of what you’ll say

So I’m hiding what I’m feeling

But I’m tired of

Holding this inside my head

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[chorus:]

I’ve been spending all my time

Just thinking about ya

I don’t know what to do

I think I’m fallin’ for you

I’ve been waiting all my life

And now I found ya

I don’t know where to

I think I’m fallin’ for you

I’m fallin’ for you

...

As I’m standing here

And you hold my hand

Pull me towards you

And we start to dance

All around us

I see nobody

Here in silence

It’s just you and me

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repeat **

repeat [chorus]

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Oh I just can’t take it

My heart is racing

The emotions keep spinning out

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repeat [chorus]

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I think I’m fallin’ for you

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I can’t stop thinking about it

I want you all around me

And now I just can’t hide it

I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)

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I’m fallin’ for you

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Ooohhh

Oh no no

Oooooohhh

Oh I’m fallin’ for you

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shweeeetttt :)

a smile a day keeps ur problems away...

my heart and my soul

i give You control

consume me from the inside out

Lord let justice and praise

become my embrace

to love You from the inside out

everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

and the cry of my heart

is to bring You praise

from the inside out

Lord my soul cries out

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a smile is da greatest gift a person has...

so, use it to brighten up people's lives...

and perhaps even ur own...

do not waste such a wonderful gift...

its always easier said than done....


yesterday we went for a barbeque buffet at Halia Gardens situated at Sime Darby Convention Centre... it was really a long and painful nite out for me... my my booked for a table for 7pm.. so we all got dressed and left da house at about 6 something... then while we reached federal highway, there was a massive traffic jam... and we suspected dat it was cuz of da road block.. btw midvalley was juz minutes away from where we were caught in da jam at federal highway.. then my dad decided to take da old klang road to avoid da jam... so he T-offed to take da old klang road... it was smooth at first... until we came to dunno-which-part-of-the old klang road, saw many many cars... yeahh anotha jam... so we thought it wud be fast.. but we were so wrong.. da cars moved as slow as a snail... seriously... and guess wat?? we actually got stuck there for a good one and a half hours!!!
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so later my dad remembered dat further down got a t-off back to federal highway.. so we practically crawled all our way to dat t-off and finally we reached it.. and da moment i saw something dat made me go oh my gosh... da moment my dad took da turn to federal highway, i saw midvalley... kan i dah cakap dat midvalley was at first minutes away from where we were?? if oni we stayed on dat highway, we wudnt hav got stuck in a jam for no reason.. and afta my dad took da t-off back to federal highway, he was speeding all da way... speeding on all da flyovers which was very scary... hahaa.. and when we found da signboard sayin Sime Darby CC, we were delighted dat we almost reached ady...
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and things juz got worst... from a distance to da turning to da building... we saw anotha massive jam.. and we all got even more frustrated.. cuz we were all so hungry... and my mum called da restaurant onece earlier to say dat we'll be late cuz of traffic jams.. and my mum extent da time to 7.45... but when we were juz a lil outside da building, it was 8 ady... and da road was packed.. so my mum called in again, and said dat we were juz outside but caught in anotha jam.. then da person in-charged said dat theres a concert going on nearby... and dat explains why.. as we got closer up da road, we can see cars parked all along da road.. as in seriously.. along da highway.. on da left and on da right.. which oni gave space to one lane of on-moving cars... so yeahh there was seriously a concert of i dunno which celeb at an empty field nearby...
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finally reacher da building... went in took our seat and charged da buffet table.. it was wonderful until mr.cramp came along... yeahh suddenly i had a bad stomach cramp... seriously.. i cudnt evern sit straight nor walk... so while everybody ate nicely, i juz sat and groaned cuz i cant do anything.. da pain was unbearable... but at da end i managed to eat da chocolate fountain grapes which my sis did for me... and afta dat balik... my bros and sis and parents had loadz of fun eating ..they kept leavind a table for food.. while i sat there waiting and looking at them... so my dad was like u ah so not worth it.. i think even ur bros ate more than u.. they shud charge u for a 6 year old kid price... hhahaha.. and i was like i ate wat.. blame my stomach...
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and dat explains why i didnt managed to take any pics.. cuz i cant walk straight.. and da whole cramp thingy spoilt my mood.. anyways.. da place was awesome and da food dat i managed to eat was yummy...haha...

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cuz its never easier done than said...

IVY HOW


is SEVENTEEN !!!!






ivy in a kimono at last year's IU DAY ...

my bestieee.. :)

ivy and alya...

french maid + geisha !! *ivy looked so sweet*

a day afta PMR... we looked like kids then.. haha..

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HAPPIE 17th BIRTHDAY DARLING !!!!!!

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ivy..

thanks for being there for me all these while.. im really glad to have known someone as friendly and as sweet as u... i noe i can always count on u because ull never let me down... u had never said no when i asked u a favour.. instead u did it willingly and full-heartedly... u noe, ur truly a blessin to da ppl around u... thanks for everything, ivy... i pray dat all ur wishes will come true.. all da best in everything u do... im always there for u if u need me.. take caree.. have fun.. and...

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I LOVE YOU :)

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HAPPIE BIRTHDAY !! :D

im juz looking from a distance...

i dunno wat to blog ady these days.. so as i was looking thru my photo albums.. and i found something dat will oni be left as memories now...

im talking bout our post as INTERACT 08/09 BODS...
my post as PUBLICITY DEPUTY 08/09...
had came to an end...

da new line of BODS for da INTERACT CLUB 09/10 has also been elected...
which officially makes us resign from our post...

we had lots of fun every week during our weekly meetings... and also during our own bods meetings... we did a lot of activities dis year... and one year seemed to past by really fast... and most of us had our last chance organizing and preparing for our IU Day... Nevertheless, we did our part and hope dat da new bods will do a great job and make us proud... :) all we can do now is to wait for them to amaze us...

these pictures were taken during our scool magazine photography session...

INTERACT CLUB 08/09's BOARD OF DIRECTORS !! :D

da monkey faces look...
(from left): daniel, idhzan, cass, ee lyn, kim, hakim, aimi, ann, trixie, ivy, ruzanna

da serious look... our uniforms damn chun ritee?? haha..

da smiley look... :)

da informal shot...

zan, alya, me, ivy....

aimi, zan, alya, ee lyn, cass, ivy

this was when everyone started comin in one by one.. and there u hav it.. a crammed up one-on-top-of-the-other shot....

a formal shot.. i think dis is juz trial.. cuz we were missin da president, ee lyn....


a perfect formal shot... we looked smart, dun we?? :)

and tadah!! our last interact photo shoot of our life!!!

and afta dat we syiok sendiri... cuz we had our own SENIOR shot !!

*HIGH SCHOOL INTERACT - SENIOR YEAR* !!! HAHA!! :DDD

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one word : AWESOME !!

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gonna miss it a lot thou... no more wearing da very chun-ted uniform for meetings anymore.. hahaha...

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and juz standing in da background....